You suck it up or you leave

I'm sorry I couldn't blog more often this last couple of months, I got busy with school and some others stuff... it really sucks, because when you commit yourself in something that you find out, way too late, that it ain't your cut of tea at all, you just can't give up. So it's like you suck it up and you do the job, or you leave and you break your word...
But to be completely honest with you, school work takes me more time than I'd ever expected, and still, I'm not much of a hard worker. But let's face it, I'm a senior and I'll have a huge exam by the end of the scholar year so i really need to get used to work a lot on my homeworks, get somehow, used to the pressure and stuff like that.
The difference this fall is, that I really enjoy my time in class, I love the atmosphere and I really got an amazing bunch friends, and it goes without saying that the teachers are a bit complaining of my non-stop good mood...! but it's okay I can handle it, I completely know what I'm doing, I know where I'm going and it's the most important thing to me.

Happy Birthday to myself!

Hi there!
Last Saturday I was back from school!!!!!!!!!

Okay, okay this is not funny. Not funny at all to pretend I was studying! But yes I was there for some other reasons...The school' Staff made some reception you know for giving gifts to good students, there were soda and cookies and stuff...

It was nice to see again my classmates even though they weren't all there.

So obviously I was pretty excited to receive my price...But you know what it was? a huge, heavy, ugly, dictionary!!!!!! oh my goodness!!! why? so I have good marks at school just to get some book to study even more on it!?

School in Algeria is really pitiful.

Anyway, there's the good news like you know, Spain is world champion!!!! I was so happy because when Algeria has been kicked out, I was rooting for Spain and obviously I was so happy when they won! Rafa Nadal was there in Johannesburg to support his compatriots, I've seen pics and he was crying!!!

What else? oh yeah!! that is the best part of what I have to say: We're July 13th and It's my Birthday!!!! Well, I highly doubt that my father even remembered it, but my mom did so I think I'll get great gifts! pray for me guys to get a new cell-phone!!!! or a Prince tennis' racquet! I want new ones.

So see you soon...

No title for this post, sorry!

I'm back, and I feel it's been an eternity that I didn't blog, well it's only because I've no much to say, there's nothing unusual happening in my life, so basically I'm just living an awful routine. The worst about it, is that I'm getting accustomed to it. I should be sorry for myself but as true as it bothers me to say it, I am not really, in fact I'm trying as hard as I can to carry on living this routine for the days I have left to go to school, having lessons, then taking part to exams and... and finally Holidays!!!!!!!! the last ones before my Baccalaureate exam and let me tell you that I am so freaked out, I'm afraid to screw everything up, after 3 years of torture at this goddamn high school (which looks so like a prison) the least I can do is to get out of there with a good Baccalaureate result (why not excellent result?) but I'm so frightened that all that has been done for nothing, well I can't say: all that "hard word" for nothing, because I'm not really a hard worker; I've always had good marks everywhere and especially in Mathematics without any effort so far, but here is my big issue, I do not and completely not know how to work hard to get something. That's to say bad habits are really... "bad" in default of better word.

So I think I'm just gonna carry on this way, carry on living my humdrum and meaningless life till my next year, and then I'll see what options I got.

By the way, did I mentioned I got a new English teacher? well at first I thought he was just some kind of jerk, and I've been really awful with him, but he's so a nice guy and I feel so terrible and guilty to have treated him the way I did. he even congratulated me for my good results!

I am a terrible person...

I'm getting bored and annoyed...and I never do bored and annoyed

I'd never thought it could exist any way to spend a week-end as bad as I do, seriously I'm getting so bored that I'm thinking of doing my homeworks! the kind of homeworks I'm used to give to my little brother to do in exchange of money obviously (he's a bastard) but as my pockets are empty right now, I have to do it all by myself and I hate that cause it's about painting and drawing and everything that drives me completely mad as I'm not really a patient girl... Yep, mommy and daddy did not choose the right name when I was born! (Sabrina in Arabic means someone patient!!) but now that I'm thinking about it, Sabrina is not an Arabic name, actually it's Italian!!! could it be just a coincidence? that an Italian name means something in another language

whatever...right?

So like I said before, I'm not really enjoying my time right now, I watched the new episode of Vampire Diaries (which I actually loved) I also checked the last 90210 new episode out (not bad, the most exciting thing was that Naomi and Liam broke up! hah I really enjoyed seeing Naomi's face when Liam said: "I just wanna be out of here" he was actually living with her in her house) I tried to watch "Prince of Persia" the movie I'm waiting for since almost a year, a friend of mine told me that it just came out, but it appears that he lied, so he's gonna taste a bit of my negativity next Sunday...

the only good stuff right now is that I get my second term results: I got 15.54! I did very well! especially when you see the 13.21 of the first term...ahhh my happiness would be totally complete if only I didn't know so well that I'm gonna screw everything up this last term...

keep in touch.

Masquerade! et tralalala...

hey everybody, This is my masterpiece:

It is my art exam.

Art class is an option we sometimes we got fun stuff to do, sometimes very boring stuff, and frustrating... And in fact, Art is not an option, we got to have it!

so the subject was to do an advertisement about anything and I chose an event: masquerade!

Of course I had to do it in French. But it is still awesome, isn't it?

Time for me to blog again...

I know I've been kind of lazy with you and I completely neglected my blog, but believe me it couldn't be otherwise. Between school, tennis practices, my Russian lessons (that I try as best I could do to have) and some time to my friends who noticed that I've been such a deserter for some weeks now, I've got no time to blog but now it's the holidays so...

I think I own big apologies (I don't know exactly to who) cause I've totally screwed up my blog. when I see the date of the last post I'm like: Waouh! have I been that neglecting?

that's to say that I am so sorry. I should add this is not gonna happen again, but... it is probably going to so...!

I have no big news except that I finally did well at school! maybe I could have done better but still good job compared with the first term. And now that exams are over, I'll be able to often write, and go to parties just like I did last week-end.

It was actually my cousin's friend birthday party, it was fun and we took some cool pics but my cousin, -as dumb as she is- accidentally deleted the whole file! so I can't show it to you guys. at least that makes no proof that I was in party last week-end cause my mom thought I was just spending the night with my cousin, she would be mad if she knows the truth, she hates when I lie to her and especially hates college boys! plus, I was supposed to be revising my lessons knowing that exams wasn't over yet...

I'll write again very soon so bye now

Wanna sleep!

Actually I was going to bed when I suddenly felt the need to come over here and write. So I turned on the computer, and started writing...

In fact, nothing goes right at school with the strike that is still threating...So I really feel like I'm screwing my studies you know like it becomes serious now, and we (juniors) could all fail.

But of course I got the genius idea to make the "fail" the last of my priorities, which means in other words: wasting my time to movies, music, joking... and stuff like that!

Honestly, I don't think that crying, laughing or screaming would change anything, I mean this is anyway not on my hands so I'm just doing my things and waiting for what's next. Just imagine yourself on my position; what would you really do?

talking about movies there's one that I long to see, "DEAR JOHN" a drama with Channing Tatum (one of my fav actors actually) I just heard about it so I'll try to find it somewhere on the net as I can't watch it on theater (yep, it's Algeria up here!!).

Well, I think this is it. I'm wiped and actually while I'm writing I'm looking at my bed like it was a treasure, i'm even talking to it...I'm like : I'll be on you in a minute! (I think I already talked about my boundless love for my bed so don't mind).

see you later guys!

DOODLE: OUR walk out of work

Well well well...

This week was so exhausting, I thought it'll never end... but if we talk about an END, well for sure it was a beautiful end! I think I talked previously about the walk out of work that our teachers made. Us, pupils thought it for just a week but the week became 2weeks and then 3 weeks and it almost became a months.

And finally we've been late on the school programs. now the exams are gonna be while the holidays (thing that we'll not gonna let happen) so pupils did their own walk out of work (and me among'em!) we finally get what we wanted; exams after holidays and easier topics...

talk about that later...have a good night to you all

Sorry?

Huh! and troubles start again!

Guys I got a question for you: what do you do if someone (a true copy of Paris Hilton just without the blond wig) is sitting just in front of you, seeming to totally don't care about you, and is pouring rivers of unmeaning words one after the other (which gives you by the way an horrible headache)?

at first I was tolerate, I didn't want to fire it up just because of such behavior. But after a while my patience reached its limit, and I heard myself screaming SHUT UP! the bird-brained girl next to me (who was giving me the terrible headache) did not believe her ears, she was like: uhhhh...excuse me?!!

-me: yeah, can you shut it up just for a sec?

-bird-brained girl: you're rude, you know that?

-me: I'm not, but I can tell you what YOU are; a stupid girl who doesn't respect anyone. you're coming over here (my table actually) and you behave like I was invisible

-bird-brained girl: who the hell you think you are?

-me: I don't know, someone who tells you your truths! (then I spoke with an amused tone) at least I'm useful to you. if it was someone else, he'd just insult you and would tell you to go away, and by the way with really dirty words...and whatever just get out of my face now

I don't know exactly what she was going to say, but it looked like a swear word, lucky for her the teacher prayed us to shut up.

Well this is a message to who does believe that trying to bring those kind of girls on the right way a worthwhile mission:

they'll never change, it's their nature to be like that, I think there's something that dysfunction in their brain when they had their periods the first time. It's life and be sure that it's a hopeless mess.

write to you soon...meanwhile take care! bye bye

DOODLE: Walk out of work!

Rejoice for me guys! our teachers are having a "walk out of work" this whole week! I'm so excited you just can't imagine. I'm actually thinking to what I will spend my "freedom"-week. maybe to tennis, or to hanging out with friends...Uhmm I will see but for sure I'll tell you what I chose!

I also wanted to tell you that "The Twilight Saga New Moon" is coming out soon on November 18th, so be ready!

talk to you soon...

90210

Hi guys! just thinking to let you know what I was doing 2mns ago:So...! You probably know the famous TV-Show "Beverly Hills" (well for the Under 15 maybe not but for older audience I'm sure you know about what I'm talking). So on 2008 the first season of the Beverly Hills Sping off started. I actually really liked, it's sort of a Californian "Gossip Girl" you know all that money, that fancy clothes, fancy cars, material girls with rich's kid manners you know...If I was living that I would certainly hate that extravagant world but since it's just on TV, I pretty like, I find it kind of fun and interesting.

Even I wasn't a fan of Beverly Hills "the original" (ok the truth is that I was too young to apreciate that kind of TV-serials actually) So I wanted to catch up this time by following the sping off, like West Bev high School was giving me a second shot to know it's juniors!!

So when I knew that it would be a sping off I waited patiently for the first episode (I actually saw it last year in English because the translation into French took really like a whole year!)
although my friends are following the Show just now while I've saw all the season last year (well not in french but thanks to that, my English is getting better and better!)

Now I'm folling the second season. So 2 minutes ago, I've finished to watch the eighth episode, and I just have to say a single word: AMAZING!!!

Actually that first eighth episodes of the second season are awesome, and a lot better than the first season(well the first was good but not as much as the second) Like actors said before the second season came out: "It's gonna be bigger, better and bolder".

So after a long year wait, the second season finally started, and I must say that I wasn't disapointed. I remember that I've heard about it while the summer vacation when I read somewhere that the filming was done and that it's gonna be on Tuesday september 8th, I was like: great, great, great!finally the second season of 90210 arrives!!!!

PS: I am crazy in love with one of the characters: "Liam" played by "Matt Lanter"!!! but it often happens to me to have a crush on actors; the farthest persons I can ever think of reachin'em

Hope it wasn't too boring! see ya guys soon...

DOODLE: Not my idea of Heaven at all

first of all, I gotta say that something goes wrong on this site, it's been like a 3 weeks now that I can't put any picture any video, I can't use the colours, GOD that drives me crazy!! and apparently no one is doing something to solve it.

But let's be back about me a lil bit, but where do I start?...

Uhmm, at first I think I completely screwed up my test of Science Nat, which is unfortunate cause it represents 20% of my final note. it is nfortunate cause you know I'm in science class and I cannot count on maths to make up my notes anymore, so as true as it bothers me to say it, I have to work hard in Science Nat (in fact I hate the Sciences from the depth of myself)
And only now, I realize that I made the worst mistake of my life by enlisting in the scientific class. I should have went into math class, (you would say, why you didn't then? I would answer: that's what it costs to listen to your Dad) How dumb I was!
Then, I think I had the greatest revelation of my life, boys are assholes! ok, alright maybe not as great as I thought, but still a huge deal knowing that I always defend them like:
-"stop saying that about them girls, it's not fair at all, they're cool, maybe more than us"
Now I realize that the girls were right, boys are assholes I found it out somedays ago when my supposed friend (boy) showed me how evil boys can be.
Well I don't wanna give too many details about that but all I can say is that I thought that hypocrisy was just a girl-business. well, guys can be so hypocritical! and believe me it hurts more when it comes from boy than from a girl! and now I'm not talking about boys as boyfriends (everyone knows that they're assholes by this side) but I'm talking about them as friends, I never thought it possible, when it happened I was like "no way!" and I've heard someone shouting "WAY"!

What else? oh yeah! at least something good happened in all that. So this week I was finally back on the tennis courts and I cannot tell you how much I missed it. The balls, my rackets and my coach (he's so cute and young in addition! you can't even imagine how much pleasure it is to play with him) but we just maintain a professional relationship...there maybe a suspicion of friendship in it but nothing more I swear!


that's all for now! will be in touch!xx

Finally back!

I'm really sorry for the lack of updates this last week, but it was a crazy week actually, I just hadn't a free minute. I was so busy with the school-work, and I think I'll be for some time.
But I'm not the only reason, it becomes impossible to put a picture or a video here, and I have so many things to show you! I don't know exactly to what it's due, but it's been like two weeks that we can't upload something.
So it's pretty ennoying with no colour, no music or pictures. I just hope the problem will be solved quickly...
I'll write to you in a week or so...
keep around, LOVE YA

DOODLE: Finally, here is the Weekend

what a week! this was a very long week actually so this two days off are welcome! but if I summarize a bit, I think I'm pretty happy with the way things have turned, cause first: nothing ambarrassing or things like that happened to me! I didn't fight with anyone (a miracle) and... oh common let's say it; it was pretty fun out there!!
So, now it's not a new school year anymore, we passed the first week, now we're studying normaly.
I actually greatly appreciated having good relations with everyone, you know cause it's usually the most important thing in high school, I mean start on good basics...
the disappointing thing in all that is that; my old friend whom I spoke about the other day is not in class, the asshole director put her in another class, but wherever, I think we can deal with that...

I think that's it, now I'll have sometime to rest,
Keep reading my online diary where a teen girl shares her life
kiss kiss...bye bye

DOODLE: Back to serious business…

After 3 days of total confusion (let’s say it clearly, the administration was totally overcome) we’re back to real work, that’s to say; courses resume, teachers are very serious seemed to say “finished jokes, hello hard work” that sucks! But fortunately I have my best friend in class with me and at the latest next week; one of my oldest friends should join us, so…But can you imagine?! She and I + my best friend are like links since what? the first school year! Then we were 5! And we’ve always been together since that. We are now 16 and it’s always a pleasure, we’re sort of, I don’t know, but like there’s a strong link up there, hope it’ll always remain as huge in 10 other years…
About courses, like I said finished jokes; now it's time to get back to the school spirit, you know it's kinda...for exemple: there's always a song playing in my mind over and over again, so now I have to delete all the music and replace it by some questions like: what is exactly a shank!!

I don't even know what it is!!! in fact it's hard to think that way, I mean when I'm in a classroom, it's definately too hard to think of other stuff that sleeping, the beach, ice-creams and how many hours left to go out!! and beleive me I do think that way!!

Gosh!!!! I guess this will be a long, long yearrrr

DOODLE: We’re not in holidays anymore!

Okay, I think I survived the first day of school, however, I'm totally exhausted, I guess I've already spoken about my sleep time so if I wake up at 6am instead of 1pm ! Hello effect hangover!
Right now I really need a good night's sleep, so then I'll go to bed earlier tonight. But today was really not a pleasure, to see everybody at school to tell’em Hello, have a big smile pasted on the face all the day and pretend to be happy and so excited to see everyone! ughhhh I hate it. After a while I was tired of this entire circus so when I left, I was totally upset! and then my friend told me : "you could try to do a little effort you know, cause if they wanna figure you out, that's the picture they would have about you: a sullen girl who does not want to know her future classmates!" and me I was like: "yes I don’t! I don’t want to know them! I'm not in a lack of social life! you know" then she said: "just be more accessible to people so they can know who you really are"

Despite what she said, I spent the rest of the day pouting! Honestly I'm not the kind of person who pretends to be happy when he’s not; I often say whatever is in my head which is not pleasant to hear for some people!! Uhm anyways the matter is that I have good friends who know who I really am, and that's enough for me.

DOODLE: I cannot wait for tomorrow!!!

It’s the eve of the first day of school and I'm just too stressed, or maybe disappointed. Actually I feel the same every year, cause every school year’s end, I’m like: Okay, this summer, I’ll do this and this… but at the end of the holidays I didn’t do anything of what I planed to do, and that’s sort of irritating and disappointing at the same time. Whatever, it doesn't matter anymore, now I just have to go out there, and have a new start, maybe try to achieve some things I always wanted to, and enjoy the year cause it’s the last one before the baccalaureate’s year so. There’s just one thing I like about been back at school: wearing new clothes seem to show our summer-look, I gotta say that is pretty cool!

Ps: I’m not much a show-off!

DOODLE: From heaven to hell

Today was registration for the new school year, great!! Oh yeah, I forgot to mention that I’m a high school student!

In the morning I was sleeping... so my friends came and swung me water in the face to wake me up!!! Actually it's my mom's fault; she shouldn’t let them enter my bedroom without my permission. But I was kinda happy to see them, you know that feeling you have when you’re with people who understand you and with whom you can be yourself, you know whatever you’re doing; they’re just like: it’s cool!! So I think spend time with’em is something I just love to do, although I'm probably the only normal person among them… I think!

Anyway, about school, to see again everyone out there just remind me how much I hate school, exactly I hate school mainly because of other students, there are all kinds: good guys, bad guys, the show-offs (primarily from the female gender actually) and so on... This diversity drives people totally crazy; we never know what way forward with'em, never at all.

Thanks god, there are my friends, who that will always be there for me, or at least are meant to be there!!! In fact I think it’s the right way to go through this stage of life, I mean just hang on your friends and be yourself. Then you realize once you leave school, that it’s a smaller version of life.

At least it's still the same school as last year, no new faces except the young new-comers that I’m not too scared to face or meet, which will make it a bit easier. Cause I still remember what feelings you have when you enter at new school, and actually, first days at new schools always feel the same: Like suddenly you’re on a new planet, breathing a new atmosphere…