You suck it up or you leave

I'm sorry I couldn't blog more often this last couple of months, I got busy with school and some others stuff... it really sucks, because when you commit yourself in something that you find out, way too late, that it ain't your cut of tea at all, you just can't give up. So it's like you suck it up and you do the job, or you leave and you break your word...
But to be completely honest with you, school work takes me more time than I'd ever expected, and still, I'm not much of a hard worker. But let's face it, I'm a senior and I'll have a huge exam by the end of the scholar year so i really need to get used to work a lot on my homeworks, get somehow, used to the pressure and stuff like that.
The difference this fall is, that I really enjoy my time in class, I love the atmosphere and I really got an amazing bunch friends, and it goes without saying that the teachers are a bit complaining of my non-stop good mood...! but it's okay I can handle it, I completely know what I'm doing, I know where I'm going and it's the most important thing to me.

Damon diary entries from sasi

Those are freaking awesome pages of Damon's diary, my friend from www.Authspot.com just sent it to me so each one of you can see'em. How generous she is!

anyway thank you Sasi, thank you so much

enjoy guys! it's freaking awesome!!!

Rise and Shine sleepyheads!

it's 9 in the morning and God! I feel so good! seriously I'm brimming with energy, I don't know if it'll always make feel that way the fact that I wake up pretty early; but I noticed that I never feel that good when I wake up later, like around 12 a.m, actually I feel exactly the same way as when I wake up at 6 when I used to go to school, which means: lazy, a headache, terrible want to go back to bed but just can't sleep again... Now it seems like I found the right time to wake up!

Okay enough with the sleeping time, and let's get right down to the main topic; I said before I was going to talk about 90210 season finale, actually I didn't like it much cause there were too much cliffhangers. "just like the vampire diaries finale" you'd tell me, but the difference is that TVD's cliffhangers were kind of smart and well thought:

1. Caroline who's got an internal bleeding so basically we don't know if she's gonna die or not.
2. Tyler, and the werewolf thing.
3. not really a cliffhanger but, Damon and the fact that he thinks he kissed Elena.
4. Jeremy, he took drugs to kill himself to turn onto vampire but we didn't really see him dead so there's kind of a Two in One cliffhanger: 1-Jeremy dead or not, 2-Vampire Jeremy.
5. What is exactly going to happen with Elena and Kathrine in the same house?
6. Bonnie, and her weird behavior with Elena.
7. Mayor Lockwood's death (when the handsome vampire of the tomb broke his neck I was like: haha finally someone punishing you for cheating on your wife and hitting your son! bad man, really bad).
8. And the whole mess in Elena's house with on a side, uncle John's body on the kitchen's floor, and on the other side, uncle John's fingers all messed up on the kitchen's table, which is kind of a cliffhanger too cause Jenna doesn't know about the whole vampire thing and she'll seriously be freaked out. (hah I like the scene when Kathrine cuts John's fingers and John was screaming: ahhhhh ahhhhh ahhhhh, Kathrine? (cause he thought it was Elena) so "Elena" who was actually Kathrine immediately shows her vampire eyes and greeted John "Hello John ...Good-Bye John" and she stabbed him. haha seriously I think Nina is specially done to play the wicked one. And Kathrine definitely rocks!

but 90210... there were no excitement, no explosive things, I mean compared to TVD and the vampire's attack and Uncle John's devise to kill the vamps, 90210 was boring; I was waiting for Annie and Liam to kiss the whole season but I thought, I mean I was like: "no kiss for now? okay not a problem, it's sure gonna be on season finale" but there wasn't! I was like: crap, no kiss? just a hug?

seriously I got bored watching it, for instance: Dixon was up to some Australia trip with Ivy (his short time girlfriend; who totally rocks by the way) and he was thinking of that trip since like 5 episode or whatever, but at the end we just saw him packing his stuff whereas his mother was forbidding him to go anywhere, so does it mean he's not going? (cause his mommy was very convincing, my own mother wouldn't do better!) or does it mean he's gonna escape from the window?

oh and his parents are about to get divorced ...which kind of sucks but it's a TV-show so I guess it adds some drama in it.

Uhm, the main thing of the episode was ..., it was like a party at a museum (seriously who throws a party among a pile of decomposed Dinosaur bodies?) so basically the place was already boring, and everybody was dressed the same way, girls wearing red, boys black and I heard something like the married girls need to wear white or something...

But nothing special happened just a happy end for Silver and Teddy who got back together, Adrianna and Navid did too, poor Liam whose dearly boat had been burned by Jasper (Annie's jealous sociopath ex-boyfriend, who's got gorgeous eyes BTW) and Naomi who: 1-has been dumped by Liam (I was so happy you just can't imagine how much, Naomi/Liam sucks), 2-got reaped by Mr. Cannon the apparently new teacher at West Bev high School (or at least, was about to get reaped, cause it was the last scene of the episode, it was the main cliffhanger of it).

Well, this might sounds like a shocking stuff but I was sure something like that was about to happen to Naomi, she's been mean, and glib with everybody around her, she tried to get even from her sister, and here you can see how stupid Naomi is cause trying to fool Jen is definitely a hopeless mess and a really bad idea cause Jen is the most freaking and scaring bitch I've ever met or saw, and she has always got the last word.

So Naomi got reaped (or not, here's the other Cliffhanger) by Mr. Cannon, the guy whom she almost destroyed the life when she wrongly accused him of sexual harassment (what a smooth lie!). So at first everybody was like: Go Naomi, you're a strong girl and stuff, but when she confessed and when everybody in school knew she was lying, she kind of walked in the shepherd shoes, Cannon knew what he was doing, he knew nobody would believe her if she tells cause she already lied once... I don't know if it's said that way in English, but in French there's something: a proverb or a little story of the circumstances: it's the shepherd who yells "wolf" when there is not, so everyone run to help him but he lies every time, but when he did need help, when there was actually a wolf nobody believed him thinking he was lying again... So that is sort of what happened or what is about to happen to Naomi. pretty sad!

Actually I was watching the episode with my friend but she didn't know about the whole story with Silver and Teddy, Adrianna & Navid, so she was a bit like: "I DON'T GET IT! Teddy & Silver broke up? guess because I can't understand English as good as you" and I was like: yeah you wouldn't get too even if you do understand English cause you haven't seen the last few episodes.

So she forced me to tell her the whole story, which took me about 10 mns so basically I missed 10 mns of the finale, so she was like: "Ahhh I get know, so Silver was doing the right thing!" and I was like: "yeah, okay smart one"...

So between TVD's final episode and 90210's, the choice is quickly done ...VAMPS!!!

PS: the girl on the pics: JESSICA LOWNDES who plays ADRIANNA TAT-DUNCAN on the show of 90210. She btw as an amazing voice.

Nice Thursday night out with friends.

I think yesterday, I got the nicest surprise of my whole life! I was at home, after school, it was around 8 p.m, I just had taken a shower so basically after that I was untangling my hair and I was wearing my very pink pajamas... I was like really ready to go to bed, at 8 p.m! and that's when my phone rang! it was my cousin (the insane one, the one who used to throw parties at aunty's empty house), and the conversation was like:

-hey freak! (I thought then that everything's normal, woe is me!)

-hey Sab listen; clothe up, I'm picking you up in 10 minutes ... wait ... (pause) ...... you got it? I need ya ready in 10, and we'll be on time .... (an other pause) .... wait I can't hear ya (as if she had let me put a word!)

-On time to what? what're talking about?

-to Dinner at the " Wood Woody Pecker" or "Pecker wood" or whatever, you know, the brand new restaurant I told you about last time, it's Zaky's birthday. (the correct name was "Woody Pecker")

-really? (I felt ashamed not to know it) should we take a present?

-oh cut it out, no need! those days are gone. Wake up girl the world has moved on!

-Okay but I need some time to get my hair dried...

-Why the hell your hair is wet?

-Actually I just took a show...

-Yeah whatever, just don't get us late, see ya (and she hang up).

the weirdest thing is that she got home at time! her!!!! who's always late, to whatever the event maybe! Of course I wasn't ready yet so she helped me out with my hair.

She, by the way, wore one of my bags! (I knew the hair help wasn't free anyway): Ah finally something cute to put on your closet... huh I speak like you had a closet! do you call that a closet? I call it a mess!all that old and stinky stuff!

Of course when you hear that, you would want to slap her or something but I get used to the way she is and I really don't mind.

So we went to the restaurant, we met there some friends of hers and some of mine, we sang happy birthday, we ate some cake. then the dinner was absolutely delicious (I ordered fish, my cousin by the way dropped a comment "as usual": am I gonna have the pleasure "someday" to see you ordering something else than Fish or pizza?) and that was totally true, a dinner out means systematically Pizza or fish to me (every meal that got any kind of fish becomes one of my fav meals).

When you hear all that right now, it doesn't sound like a lot of fun, but in fact is was really cool, I always have fun with her, and I always enjoy my time weather with her or with her friends.

Time for me to blog again...

I know I've been kind of lazy with you and I completely neglected my blog, but believe me it couldn't be otherwise. Between school, tennis practices, my Russian lessons (that I try as best I could do to have) and some time to my friends who noticed that I've been such a deserter for some weeks now, I've got no time to blog but now it's the holidays so...

I think I own big apologies (I don't know exactly to who) cause I've totally screwed up my blog. when I see the date of the last post I'm like: Waouh! have I been that neglecting?

that's to say that I am so sorry. I should add this is not gonna happen again, but... it is probably going to so...!

I have no big news except that I finally did well at school! maybe I could have done better but still good job compared with the first term. And now that exams are over, I'll be able to often write, and go to parties just like I did last week-end.

It was actually my cousin's friend birthday party, it was fun and we took some cool pics but my cousin, -as dumb as she is- accidentally deleted the whole file! so I can't show it to you guys. at least that makes no proof that I was in party last week-end cause my mom thought I was just spending the night with my cousin, she would be mad if she knows the truth, she hates when I lie to her and especially hates college boys! plus, I was supposed to be revising my lessons knowing that exams wasn't over yet...

I'll write again very soon so bye now

DOODLE: OUR walk out of work

Well well well...

This week was so exhausting, I thought it'll never end... but if we talk about an END, well for sure it was a beautiful end! I think I talked previously about the walk out of work that our teachers made. Us, pupils thought it for just a week but the week became 2weeks and then 3 weeks and it almost became a months.

And finally we've been late on the school programs. now the exams are gonna be while the holidays (thing that we'll not gonna let happen) so pupils did their own walk out of work (and me among'em!) we finally get what we wanted; exams after holidays and easier topics...

talk about that later...have a good night to you all

Sorry?

Huh! and troubles start again!

Guys I got a question for you: what do you do if someone (a true copy of Paris Hilton just without the blond wig) is sitting just in front of you, seeming to totally don't care about you, and is pouring rivers of unmeaning words one after the other (which gives you by the way an horrible headache)?

at first I was tolerate, I didn't want to fire it up just because of such behavior. But after a while my patience reached its limit, and I heard myself screaming SHUT UP! the bird-brained girl next to me (who was giving me the terrible headache) did not believe her ears, she was like: uhhhh...excuse me?!!

-me: yeah, can you shut it up just for a sec?

-bird-brained girl: you're rude, you know that?

-me: I'm not, but I can tell you what YOU are; a stupid girl who doesn't respect anyone. you're coming over here (my table actually) and you behave like I was invisible

-bird-brained girl: who the hell you think you are?

-me: I don't know, someone who tells you your truths! (then I spoke with an amused tone) at least I'm useful to you. if it was someone else, he'd just insult you and would tell you to go away, and by the way with really dirty words...and whatever just get out of my face now

I don't know exactly what she was going to say, but it looked like a swear word, lucky for her the teacher prayed us to shut up.

Well this is a message to who does believe that trying to bring those kind of girls on the right way a worthwhile mission:

they'll never change, it's their nature to be like that, I think there's something that dysfunction in their brain when they had their periods the first time. It's life and be sure that it's a hopeless mess.

write to you soon...meanwhile take care! bye bye

DOODLE: Walk out of work!

Rejoice for me guys! our teachers are having a "walk out of work" this whole week! I'm so excited you just can't imagine. I'm actually thinking to what I will spend my "freedom"-week. maybe to tennis, or to hanging out with friends...Uhmm I will see but for sure I'll tell you what I chose!

I also wanted to tell you that "The Twilight Saga New Moon" is coming out soon on November 18th, so be ready!

talk to you soon...

DOODLE: smells like teen spirit

Hi guys, how you all doing? hope good!

Of course i was busy "again!" this week was just like the two others before; a test-week!
I think I did well in my History and math tests, which makes me feel confident for the rest of the week. But sadly, I've totally done wrong in English; I don't know how it is possible, I just mad a terrible mistake and I feel so disappointing right now. I guess the "too much confidence" hurts me!
but apart from School, I took a 2 day trip to "Tipaza" people around here are like: "OMG, I love that place it's so wonderful and so..." when they talk about it so I think it deserve a shot. So I went there with my cousins and their friends. In fact we went to my aunt's empty house (my aunt lives there, but I was 10 the last time I went to, so I obviously don't remember what kind of atmosphere there is), Actually my aunt ain't there, she is out of the country right now, which is good because we could throw some cool parties, unfortunatly we arrived there and we didn't know how to open the door! but my genius cousins (or really stupid cousins, depending on viewpoint) were finally able to get the keys.
Oh and by the way, I'm curious to see aunty's reaction when she'll be back and when she'll see her house converted to Night Club!!! she would be like: I shouldn't have given my keys to such evil kids, I'm an idiot!! haha for sure we'll laugh!
But outside Home, it is such an oasis up there...I didn't do anything but read (my last book was "La Maison de Matriona" by "Alexander Soljenitsyn") and listen to Nirvana in full blast (I had a crush on "Smells like teen Spirit").
I even tried fishing this time, which I learned is a total bore!

surprising things also happened like my cousin said no to cigarettes!!!! that is a proof that everything was crazy that week-end, my cousin is such a Guauloises drugy, but he swore to stop, cause smoking is bad for the health! you certainly already know the song.

the whole week-end I tried to play guitar, but you know what I couldn't!!!! What a shit! and to think, I was almost a little Slash when I was young!! a lefty Slash rocks, doesn't it? life ain't fair!

that's all what I've got for now, don't miss me too much...

DOODLE: Finally, here is the Weekend

what a week! this was a very long week actually so this two days off are welcome! but if I summarize a bit, I think I'm pretty happy with the way things have turned, cause first: nothing ambarrassing or things like that happened to me! I didn't fight with anyone (a miracle) and... oh common let's say it; it was pretty fun out there!!
So, now it's not a new school year anymore, we passed the first week, now we're studying normaly.
I actually greatly appreciated having good relations with everyone, you know cause it's usually the most important thing in high school, I mean start on good basics...
the disappointing thing in all that is that; my old friend whom I spoke about the other day is not in class, the asshole director put her in another class, but wherever, I think we can deal with that...

I think that's it, now I'll have sometime to rest,
Keep reading my online diary where a teen girl shares her life
kiss kiss...bye bye

DOODLE: Back to serious business…

After 3 days of total confusion (let’s say it clearly, the administration was totally overcome) we’re back to real work, that’s to say; courses resume, teachers are very serious seemed to say “finished jokes, hello hard work” that sucks! But fortunately I have my best friend in class with me and at the latest next week; one of my oldest friends should join us, so…But can you imagine?! She and I + my best friend are like links since what? the first school year! Then we were 5! And we’ve always been together since that. We are now 16 and it’s always a pleasure, we’re sort of, I don’t know, but like there’s a strong link up there, hope it’ll always remain as huge in 10 other years…
About courses, like I said finished jokes; now it's time to get back to the school spirit, you know it's kinda...for exemple: there's always a song playing in my mind over and over again, so now I have to delete all the music and replace it by some questions like: what is exactly a shank!!

I don't even know what it is!!! in fact it's hard to think that way, I mean when I'm in a classroom, it's definately too hard to think of other stuff that sleeping, the beach, ice-creams and how many hours left to go out!! and beleive me I do think that way!!

Gosh!!!! I guess this will be a long, long yearrrr

DOODLE: We’re not in holidays anymore!

Okay, I think I survived the first day of school, however, I'm totally exhausted, I guess I've already spoken about my sleep time so if I wake up at 6am instead of 1pm ! Hello effect hangover!
Right now I really need a good night's sleep, so then I'll go to bed earlier tonight. But today was really not a pleasure, to see everybody at school to tell’em Hello, have a big smile pasted on the face all the day and pretend to be happy and so excited to see everyone! ughhhh I hate it. After a while I was tired of this entire circus so when I left, I was totally upset! and then my friend told me : "you could try to do a little effort you know, cause if they wanna figure you out, that's the picture they would have about you: a sullen girl who does not want to know her future classmates!" and me I was like: "yes I don’t! I don’t want to know them! I'm not in a lack of social life! you know" then she said: "just be more accessible to people so they can know who you really are"

Despite what she said, I spent the rest of the day pouting! Honestly I'm not the kind of person who pretends to be happy when he’s not; I often say whatever is in my head which is not pleasant to hear for some people!! Uhm anyways the matter is that I have good friends who know who I really am, and that's enough for me.

DOODLE: I cannot wait for tomorrow!!!

It’s the eve of the first day of school and I'm just too stressed, or maybe disappointed. Actually I feel the same every year, cause every school year’s end, I’m like: Okay, this summer, I’ll do this and this… but at the end of the holidays I didn’t do anything of what I planed to do, and that’s sort of irritating and disappointing at the same time. Whatever, it doesn't matter anymore, now I just have to go out there, and have a new start, maybe try to achieve some things I always wanted to, and enjoy the year cause it’s the last one before the baccalaureate’s year so. There’s just one thing I like about been back at school: wearing new clothes seem to show our summer-look, I gotta say that is pretty cool!

Ps: I’m not much a show-off!

DOODLE: From heaven to hell

Today was registration for the new school year, great!! Oh yeah, I forgot to mention that I’m a high school student!

In the morning I was sleeping... so my friends came and swung me water in the face to wake me up!!! Actually it's my mom's fault; she shouldn’t let them enter my bedroom without my permission. But I was kinda happy to see them, you know that feeling you have when you’re with people who understand you and with whom you can be yourself, you know whatever you’re doing; they’re just like: it’s cool!! So I think spend time with’em is something I just love to do, although I'm probably the only normal person among them… I think!

Anyway, about school, to see again everyone out there just remind me how much I hate school, exactly I hate school mainly because of other students, there are all kinds: good guys, bad guys, the show-offs (primarily from the female gender actually) and so on... This diversity drives people totally crazy; we never know what way forward with'em, never at all.

Thanks god, there are my friends, who that will always be there for me, or at least are meant to be there!!! In fact I think it’s the right way to go through this stage of life, I mean just hang on your friends and be yourself. Then you realize once you leave school, that it’s a smaller version of life.

At least it's still the same school as last year, no new faces except the young new-comers that I’m not too scared to face or meet, which will make it a bit easier. Cause I still remember what feelings you have when you enter at new school, and actually, first days at new schools always feel the same: Like suddenly you’re on a new planet, breathing a new atmosphere…